36 year struggle, finally free, only to lose everything
Organized by: Tekie Robertson
I spent 36 years lost. I'm my younger years till my mid 20s I turned to drugs to ease the feeling of not belonging not being comfortable in my own skin. Then I got pregnant and married hoping to feel a sense of belonging and of course that marriage failed. I did repeat the same mistake as often we do, only the next 7 year marriage was much worse, beautiful and fake I'm the outside and mentaly abusive behind close doors. One day I meet a woman and she made me feel strong convinced me to leave the marriage as my husband had started doing drugs. His drug use hurt not only me but my 3 children. That women helped me find a Place to go, held my scared hand, and ultimately helped me find myself that I'd buried all my LIFE. My fear of being raised church of Christ never allowed me to entertain the fact I was so uncomfortable in my own skin because I was in fact a lesbian. After a 3 year divorce and credit destroyed I'm free. The judge awarded me the house on the terms I bought it for the 63k owed on the 198k house within 6 months... Easy enough. Only my daughter went into a mental health facility and the bills had piled up on my credit and the 100% on time payments meant nothing. I lost the loan due to my credit score dropping 11 points. Now I have 28 days before the house defaults to him. My family while few know I'm gay, do not have this kind of money. I fear coming out to all of them because I'm afraid to lose them. I have 23k of the 63k needed and 28 days to find the rest that no banks will help with. I doubted doing this because of fear it would hurt my family to broadcast I'm gay, but left with no options I can not lose my kids home. It's my daughter's senior year and she has suffered enough and deserves to be with her friends her senior year.