Getting there... slowly. I need to bee patient and trust God will put it on others hearts to help out a good cause!
May 29, 2017
BENEFITING: International OCD Foundation
EVENT: BOSTON #1Million4OCD Walk
EVENT DATE: Jun 03, 2017
Hi, my name is Jessica, and I have been struggling with OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) my whole life, but have been very active in treatment for the last 10 years. I have lost many friends and most all of my family due to this disorder and the misunderstanding of what it's life to life with OCD. I have two types, one is called "Just Right", which means I have urges to fix things that dont feel "right", which follows into symetry, color organizing, and much much more. The second types is called Trichotilloania. Also, called "Trich" has in the past made me so hasty as poeple with Trich pull their hair out in order to calm the anxiety and destress in their brain, This is a ritual that in the past made me lose hope, push people away, stop dating (as it's very difficult to understand myself nevermind explain it to others), stop eating, and I have made three suicidal attempts as I have become so hopeless that it will never get better and I didnt want to live hating myself.
This is my second time at McLean OCDI and it has made a dramatic impact on my life. I am not suicidal, not do I have suicidal ideations (thinking about making a plan to end my life). I am not currently not pulling my hair and I am working on loving others and allowing to be loved, accepting myself as I am regardless what others think (self compassion), and letting go of the past and "sitting" with my thoughts and feelings while not allowing my behavior to interfere.
This walk means so much to me. Please help me raise money so we as a team can make others aware of this life threatening disorder. I'm not setting the goal high as I'm not sure who is willing to help as the OCD has ruined many relationships with others. I ask that you donate at least $1.00 to make others aware. I just currently got a tattoo of the OCD awareness ribbon on my middle finger thanks to Mermonkey Tattoo in Rutland, VT. This has made a huge difference in my life. It is on my "pulling hand" ( the hand my brain prefers to pull with) as a constant reminder that OCD is a huge liar and is constantly trying to make decisions for me and allows intrusive thoughts to interrupt my thinking process. So please hold my hand as I walk " 1 Million Steps for OCD" on June 3rd!!! This has been weighing on my heart heavily and hope to reach a simple goal of $100.00. Thank you all in advance for your time, consideration, and willingness to spread awareness about this toxic disorder OCD!