We did it!
June 15, 2016
BENEFITING: POSTPARTUM PROGRESS
EVENT DATE: Jun 18, 2016
In the months after my third child was born, I contemplated suicide many times. I never found the time or energy to care for my home or myself. Not because it wasn't a priority, but because I couldn't do it. The depression was so overwhelming that it made even the most simple, mundane tasks nearly impossible. My life should have been amazing. My husband was healthy, my children were gorgeous and growing, I'd finished my college degree after thirteen years of work, and we were more financially stable than we'd ever been.
But depression doesn't give a shit whether or not your life is supposed to be working itself out.
When I compare myself now to myself when I turned twenty nine, I'm shocked at how thoroughly I've thrived. I'm amazed that I am a person who can deep clean my house from top to bottom and read books with her kids and feed them and take a shower and get prettied up for an evening out with friends and stay hydrated the whole time. The woman who suffered from peri-and post-partum depression four years ago was me, yes, but that woman would never have believed I could be her future. She would never have believed she had a future.
So for my birthday, I'm raising money for her, for all the women like me who needed a lifeline, who needed somebody to explain what had happened to them and to their life, to hold their hands and tell them it's okay. It gets better. It WILL be better. It WILL end, and life will go back to being something more meaningful than an endless parade of guilt and fear and isolation.