Can I Have a Second Chance?
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I didn't put my name in this because I was afraid I could automatically disqualify myself from even more jobs but would love to talk to you. If you can't help but have advice or maybe have been in a similar situation, I would love to hear from you. You can email me at email@example.com.
My Past: Because of my illness (chrons disease) I spent several years on pain medication. I became addicted to pain medication and when I lost my insurance I stole to get pain medication. This is embarrassing but it is true. I wish I could justify my actions but I can't. Because of this I went to jail for almost a year. This was the best and worst thing to happen to me. I guess it being "the worst" is for obvious reasons but it really was the best thing too. Before jail I was doing things I would never have thought of or considered if I hadn't been on drugs. I lost myself. Any conscience I had was gone for the most part. I only cared about myself and when I realized all that I had done, I wanted to die. I tried to follow in my fathers footsteps and kill myself but for some reason it didn't work. This wasn't a cry for help, this was real. I started thinking "I must be here for a reason" though I didn't know what that reason was and I didn't let that stop me from doing what I was doing. Eventually my actions caught up for me and I was sent to jail. I learned so much in jail. I found myself and decided if I had to be in jail, I needed to be as productive as possible with my time. I didn't want to sit around waiting to be released because I know if I didn't change, I would go out and do the same things over again. In jail there is a special program for recovering addicts and I filled out a request form every day until I was able to get in that program. This is really where things started to turn around for me. This is where I started to turn them around. I found God and I found myself.
I was very fortunate (and still am) to have a girlfriend who can see the real me and understand what a grip drugs can have on you. She has stuck by me through it all and for that I am truly grateful. She has been working long hours trying her best to support us but as much as I appreciate this, I also hate it. She doesn't make enough money to support 2 people and she shouldn't have to support 2 people. I have had 10 interviews in the last 2 months and I have been offered 8 jobs! 7 of the jobs quickly pull their offer once they run a background check. I have been honest on every application I have filled out though because I am not a liar and don't want to hide anything. I believe it is better they find out from me than from running a background check. Two weeks ago I was offered a job and this was after I sent them my background form. This was my dream job but it was located 2 hours away. I didn't hesitate and moved down there (Virginia Beach) to start my dream job and my new life. I loved every minute there but just yesterday (my 10th day working) I was called in to the office and told that they had just run my background check. They said even though I was honest on my application, the job was contingent on passing their official background check and they had to let me go. I was and am crushed. I had a lot of plans for the future and feel like I got ahead of myself.
I am a smart person but unfortunately for me, nobody wants me. I have medical bills to pay and a beautiful daughter to support but can't do it without a job. Over the last 10 years I have done web design off and on and would like to dedicate myself to that field. I love the technology and learning daily. Web design gives me the opportunity to do so. I am starting this fundraiser to help me start my business. I have begun making the plans and am lucky that this type of business does not require a lot of money to start up. All I need is a new computer (I have been borrowing my sisters). I have a few websites that I can put in my portfolio and have a very nice restaurant in the area that wants a website designed. I feel like once I design their website and build myself a portfolio I can really make this work. It won't be easy but I don't want it to be easy. I want to work hard and contribute to society. I don't want to be rich but I do want to be comfortable. I want to be able to pay my medical bills, take care of my daughter, and help others should they ever need it. I am attempting to raise $1500 to buy myself a mid-range iMac computer to start this business on.
I do not want handouts. I don't think you are allowed to repay people on fundraisers like this so what I am doing is offering my services. Anyone who donates $10 or more towards my cause will get a basic website and I will host it as well. I will put 100% in to every site I do as well because this will also be going towards my portfolio I will build.
I am a felon. I have made many mistakes. I have also fought hard to change. That is a fight I will never give up. I will never stop trying to be a better person. I have not touched a drug in over 3 years. I attend meetings regularly and if I can help others, I do. I believe in karma. I am so let down by that job not working out but I believe if I can get the tools to do so, I can have a successful job designing and maintaining websites. I have worked hard to make up for all of the time in life I have wasted and want to keep moving forward. I already have a couple of people who want websites and I would make the money to pay for a computer in less than a month. Unfortunately I can not build a website without my own computer.
I believe I was put here to do more. I wasn't put here to do drugs and hurt myself, I was put here to do something positive and leave a positive mark on the world. I want to help others. I am more than willing to work and if anyone would want to give me a chance, you won't regret it. I am honest about my mistakes and also can honestly tell you that they are the past. I made my mistakes, I did my time, and I grew.
Misc info about me:I love art and music. I have played guitar for 15 years. I love web design. I started learning graphic design and web design over 12 years ago and over the years have done a handfull of websites though I have never made one for myself. I am not able to find a job to support myself because of my past. I am confident that I could live comfortably designing websites for a living if I can find a way to get started. I appreciate any help giving. I don't want anyone to help that can't afford to do so. I hope that one day I find myself in a position where I too can help others who need it. I have always been a hard worker. Even when I was doing things I am not proud of, for most of it I held a job. I had a job in a technology related field for 11 years. Unfortunately I am not good at "handy work" but I feel like I can learn anything that someone is willing to teach me. I love learning, especially when it is computer or technology related but I am willing to learn and do anything that is legal work.