I am so grateful and excited to be a part of the Herren Project Ultra Team. Alcohol addiction has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember and a struggle that I have mostly been silent about. Some people close to me know but even the darkest details have never been shared with anyone. So, here it is universe!!! WOW, that was cathartic. I know what it is like to feel scared and judged. I know what it's to feel alone--so so so alone that you just want to give up on life all together. As an addict you feel "broken," at least I did. As an ultra runner, pushing through pain and persevering through athletic challenges that most people wouldn't even dream of attempting makes it hard to accept that there is something you cannot "beat." I cannot beat addiction. I know this. I also know NOW that I am NOT broken, nor am I alone. I don't have to try and "manage" my addiction and I don't need any substance to get me through life or my athletic endeavors. Over the years I have tired many ways to stay sober and I have finally found something that works for ME. Everyone has their own path and timeline. I hope that through the Herren Project I can help others see that they are not alone. I want to give back the gifts of sobriety that have recently been given so freely to me. Addiction, suicide and mental illness run rampant in my family. This is not uncommon in our world today. I finally have HOPE that I can have the amazing life that I have dreamed of--and I DO! My life could not be better than it is at this moment in time and I cannot wait to see how much better it will be the longer I am sober. Thank you for your support in advance! So many people need help and don't have the resources. Lets spread the word, crush some mountains and crush some life!