Expect nothing & Appreciate everything
Organized by: Hope for The best
January 11, 2017
On Mar 11, 2016 I was forced to hire an attorney to stop my daughter's father's rights. As the years have gone by, there has alway been an issues. When I was with him up until Feb 2005 my daughter was about 1 1/2 yrs old. I tried to go into hiding as he was very verbally abusive, withheld any support for my daughter, and had me scared for my life. That very last month we were together, it ended with him grabbing me and throwing me into the door in front of my kids. The judge denied the injunction even though I had photos of his complete handprints on my arms from brusing. Now, my daughter is 13 and he has become more controlling than ever. My job has been very supportive in this domestic abuse. On 4/2/16 my son now age 15 attempted suicide. His father who appears homophobic to him does not help. I have supported him and embraced his choices. I love my children very much. As of now my mother her health is deterorating. We have to rely on transportation from the county for her doctor appointments since she can no longer get in or out of my car. She must remain in her wheelchair. I feel bad that I cannot take her places when I am not working on the weekend. I had looked into getting a van to transport her but that would mean 2 car payments and I am not qualified because of my credit. As I took a 2 month leave of absence to take care of my son while he finished up the second semester online and take him, my daughter, and myself to therapy I had to enroll in a debt consolidation program.. My other credit cards that I did not enroll are all maxed out. Currently I cannot take overtime as I am enrolled for fmla and still in training on my new position. I hope that someone out there can help me get through these tough times. As my daughter has her guardian ad litem, he never asked how she felt about her dad nor what she wanted. I am being forced to have her engage in therapy with her dad. She has nightmares of him killing her and suffers from great anxiety knowing she may have to see him. I am also still afraid as he has stalked me in the past and I am still afraid as he owns a couple of guns. I wish I could have a permanent restraining order. My large retainer paid to my attorney has been depleteing over this short time.. I am afraid we may head to court and I will not be able to afford another deposit. I have had to see a psychiatrist for all of what is going on in my life. I have problems sleeping. I have to keep reminding myself things could be worse and be thankful for what I have. I was trying to find a 4 bedroom apartment or home, but my credit is so bad that I cannot afford the deposit and 1st months rent. My daughter and I share a bedroom since my disabled mom lives with us. She has recently been putting an air mattress in the living room because she wants her own space. I totally agree and understand. It breaks my heart that I cannot fulfill my family's goals and a better sense of saftey, relief, and happiness. In addition both my kids have been bullied over the past couple of years. The schools do not help to get this under control, very frustrating. I was told a few days ago that I always have a smile on my face. I explained there are alot of worse things in this world to be upset about and to be thankful. Good positive energy is what I need and share. Thank you for taking the time to read this and possibly share my story. Sharing is caring :)
I am hoping that my story will touch others and pass it forward. I am always reminding myself that things will get better. Appreciate the good things in life and hope that we will be blessed with a miracle. I am hoping to gather enough money to get us to a better place in our lives. I am in need of a wheelchair vehicle, they can range from 20k-35k, a 4 bedroom house or apartment to rent since my daughter needs her own space, and lastly all the medical/therapy/legal expenses to be covered going forward. Please help.