Finally its the right time I have found my purpose and Zen
Organized by: Linda Papineau
Well here goes. I must say this is extremely hard for me to ask because I am that person who has always been there emotionally, physically, spiritually and monetarily. My father and mother instilled an above and beyond work ethic in me and life's events have taken me out of the work force. I come from a strong spiritual French Canadian and Indian heritage. And needless to say I'm stubborn but in a good way because I don't give up. A little of my background, I fell in love in high school and became pregnant (back then I didn't know about birds and bees lol) with a full scholarship to Bentley college at graduation. I wanted to be a surgeon. But there was something far more precious growing in me. I never had to struggle for grades maintained a 4.0 average 4 six years. Graduated 25 out of 300 , national honor society...etc. I couldn't speak a word of English until I was 6 Years old fluent French. The teacher said I had a learning disability, therefore I was IQ tested and to her surprise I was not far below genial. So I did pursue a career in the credit field married my high school sweetheart. And found an entry level filing job for a mom and pop optical equipment supply. We both worked hard had another child 6 years later decided to leave the south and go north where we were from. I left that company with a managerial position.And got a job for Sears and Roebuck as a collection supervisor. Shortly after I started having health problems , my early 30's excruciating headaches, my maternal grandmother had just passed from a stage 4 brain tumor, I was losing strength went to numerous specialists was tested for MS RA Osteoarthritis and Fibromyalgia. Well I was diagnosed with 3 of 4. Working was no longer possible as I was in either in a wheelchair or on a good day a walker at 32. I was diagnosed disabled period. My benefits came very quickly. I never give up though. The man upstairs takes my pain when I give it and he gives courage love faith mercy and compassion and empathy. Well through this period my marriage of 12 years was gone. I was too ill for him and he had become abusive towards me. My father begged me to leave he worried everyday if I would see daylight. I felt I had nothing but my parents and my children and there was no hope. Many medications, great doctors and visiting my pastor brought me back. Through this period my father had a massive coronary and went into a coma. He was the only rock I had left to lean on. Dad made it lived 8 more years told twice he needed hospice would not give up. He learned to walk and talk again. He had to stop building houses and fixing cars but could keep busy tinkering. I have always had the desire to help critically I'll terminal patients. Dad passed with my mother sister and I alone . He held on til it was just us. I wanted to breathe for him. It pained me to see him struggle and cry in pain. At that point I was certainly not worried about him becoming addicted. My father that Feb 14, 2000 gave me the gift of hope. I was no longer afraid of death. There was warmth and light like I have never experienced. I knew then I wanted to go back to school when the children were older and I would help hospice patients. Some are alone and that breaks my heart. No one should leave alone when there are Angels Among Us. Now is the time to go back to school yes at 54.. and make the difference in other people's lives I always aspired to. My children are brilliant 2 are going into theater and ballet Julliard Yes!! If you can help me with the first semester I will make you proud. Positivity I believe love understanding faith hope compassion is what makes this world better. Oh I am in remission. On all 3. Although I've struggled like everyone does I have been blessed and how many people can say they have met Nick Jagger in a small pub in North Brook field Mass near Longview Recording studio and sang pat benatar at karaoke. OMG.. 50 shades of Red= Thank you for being there I'll be there for you too. Unity. Peace be with you.