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Finding my lost rescued cat Kyon

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THE STORY:

EDIT: Apparently I'm not allowed from using any of the fundraisers online. Everything is restricted to the US. I cannot get donations via WePay. I do have a Paypal account though. So another attempt wasted. Is this a sign? Anyway, please don't use the donate button since I won't be able to access the donation. It goes to WePay and it's US only. But if you still want to help me out, here is my Paypal if in case someone wants to donate. Thank you. Paypal: missabfdpd-cf@yahoo.com

My problem here is that the pictures wouldn't upload. https://www.youcaring.com/kyon-503492

Please Donate here instead: https://www.youcaring.com/kyon-503492/donate#pp

After all these years and tech, I really wish these sites and platforms are also available to us. Always left out....

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*Will continue writing what happened with my search thus far later. I need to prepare and go to the other neighborhood's community hall and ask permission to view last year's CCTV footage which will be overwritten by tomorrow and there's no office by 5pm and on weekends so I will lose those footage forever. I plan to post this when I finish writing everything but time is ticking. I need to know if it's plausible to afford creating posters and the reward so I'll post this unfinished for now. I'm sorry.*

I don't know how to start my story, since many things have been happening since. I didn't want to resort to crowdfunding or asking for monetary help from others that's why I didn't ask for any monetary help years ago with the rescued dogs, but right now, I really have to, else the nightmares of losing lives will repeat. . I'm being discouraged by some people here and there, even admonished to just take care of another cat since it's not "imported" or without breed anyway.

As of today, January 15,2016, it's been 24 days since my cat, Kyon, has been missing. The last time I saw him, he was meowing at me as I was talking to him not to go out. He's very quiet and only meows sometimes but usually when I talk to him. My diary entry that day was...

5:54pm
Prepared oat bran and oat meal with Kokoa powder mix. Kyon was near my feet looking up at the electric kettle. Lifted him up. I love Kyon so much! I forgot that I fell in love with him long ago, before Kali was born. Will feed them again later.
Closed Firefox as it's hogging too much of the resources with just a few tabs opened.

6:00pm
Let them smell what I'm eating so that they know that it's not for them. Kyon went to the back of the sofa to the window afterwards. Asked him not to leave so he stayed. Eventually opened the window. He now left. T_T He'll be back later.

That was the last time I saw him.
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"SHORT" VERSION

When I first got Kyon, he kept following me everywhere. When he followed me in the bathroom where the light was the brightest, I saw his eyes. It was dead looking. I don't remember if I was able to take a picture of it but it's forever in my memory. He looked like he has given up on life already and was just waiting to die. I wanted him to be happy. About the fourth day, his eyes looked livelier. Here's a copy of my diary then.

"July 20,2014 2:46pm
Woke up because of loud noises. I don't know if it came from the roof or the construction next door. It's metal noises.

Anyway, took a short break, cleaned the cat litter. I don't know if the new kitten pooped there. It wasn't piled up with the litter so I think she did. The little kitten kept on approaching me in the bathroom and wanted to be near me but I was handling water. Nyan kept on bothering the kitten. I thought Nyan was going to pet the kitten when the kitten placed her head near Nyan but Nyan scratched. She's playing by herself. So spoiled. I noticed something in the kitten's eyes. It was dead looking. Like it has no life at all. I want to take pictures and videos of it, to see if having an owner really can change a street cat. I want to see if I can make her happy. I want to document it. Maybe I will share it someday and raise awareness. By the way, the end of her tail was hanging. It's broken. I wonder if some humans outside broke it. I remember when I first saw her that she didn't have anything broken yet. She's so sweet towards humans that she might die when one of these humans tortures her.

I really wish that I can keep these cats. If not, then my goal is to make them close friends so that when the time comes I need to return them outside because cats are forbidden here, then they can be together. Their only enemies are humans. There's plenty of food and other cats outside and there are some good neighbors."

"July 23,2014 1:50am
Looked at my past pictures. Ah, this is frustrating.

Anyway, heard a loud noise upstairs. I don't know if it's Nyan cat.
The kitten is behind the sofa now. It's playing with a cockroach. I really think that it's destiny. This kitten loves me from the moment I first saw her. She kept on approaching me. I wish that I can keep them for as long as I can. When can I really enjoy my life with my pets or with anyone without the looming threat that they will have to go because they're not allowed here by the others? I guess, when I have my own house and home."

"July 24,2014 5:27am
Training the kitten. Nyan keeps on playing with her. The kitten's eyes look a bit livelier now."

"August 31,2014 10:34pm
Nyan is so funny.

I think I've thought of a name for the teenage cat now. Kyon?"

December 27,2015
2:25pm
Reading most of the entries with the word "kitten" in them, I really was somehow able to document how they changed and how I was able to train them. It really breaks my heart not knowing where Kyon is. Everyone outside will tell me to let it go, as some already did last night. I'm sure some of them were thinking that I'm crazy again. But it hurts so much.

Where are you Kyon?

January 15,2016
I really want to tell the story of Kyon and why I need to find him, but as of now, it's taking a long time to write everything. I'm not sure if anyone will take the time to read what I wrote since everyone must be busy. Also, I need to prepare and go to the other community hall and ask permission to copy their CCTV footage even if it's a little farther and a bit blurry at night, they have the CCTV for the main street. After today, December 23 will be overwritten in all the CCTV records in the neighborhood, so I'll try to continue what happened later. Although I'm so tired already. I've been searching at nights, then at mid-mornings, then the things that I have to do for the day.
On the positive side, I've lost 5 kilos of overweight walking almost every street in three neighborhoods. But it doesn't make me happy at all since when I'm here, just typing instead of searching, I feel my heart sinking. It hurts so much.

I was going to make this a summary but I ended up pouring some of my feelings again.

So here's what I tell people who ask me who I'm looking for or what I am doing.

"I'm looking for my cat. May I show you the picture?" Looks for it in my point and shoot old camera. Then start explaining the key details.
Most people immediately ask me if it's imported. I just say that it's local, meaning from the streets, no breed at all. Most listen to me explain the key characteristics to look out for in my cat but I can immediately tell that they just "indulged" me. As days passed by, there were people who actually berated me to stop looking for the cat and just take care of a new cat. I let it pass as usual. I just respectfully said, "Opo", all the time. It's a form of "Yes" here that you answer to those who are older than you and elderly people.

I don't really want to ask for monetary assistance, but I'm running out of money already and it seems like I really need to make posters...with a reward. I can't afford the reward. Not even the posters. My budget this month was hit with bills and other unexpected expenses for the past months. Although there's no problem with the pets' food. For many years, I always buy the pets' food stock for the month first with a week's allowance for the next month, so that even if I run out of money, the pets' food is always secured. I can always sleep away the hunger or trim down my food intake. I can always adjust, but I can't stand the pets and animals suffering and hungry. It really pains me so much that if I'm only rich, I would rescue every animal suffering that I always see in streets. I already did it before but it ended up in tragedy. I'll share the past blogs about it next time.

So I'm posting this to see if it's plausible to start creating posters with a reward to it.

While there were people that I've met who were willing to help without anything in return, the search isn't going anywhere.

I can't give up, even if I'm feeling really depressed about what's happening and the interactions with different strangers searching for Kyon. Also, I don't know how much luck will I have with regards to my safety since I've also been searching areas that aren't that safe. I'm dressed appropriately though so I blend in, but calling out Kyon's name every now and then as I walk streets, is catching attention.

I just think that maybe a reward will be a good incentive and will have more people help with the search. My body can't also handle the hours of walking everyday and I can only search at night and mid-mornings, since the streets cats and most cats go out at that time of the day. Last night, I started a stakeout at a not so safe area, but the kids there have become my friends. It's nice to listen to their stories.

There are also a lot of strays that I want to help but I know that given what happened years ago, I can't afford it. I'll also get into trouble with the neighborhood again.

I close my eyes and I can hear Kyon's voice. I know that he won't run away just like that. After researching online, it's really either someone did something bad to the cat that it ran away, since it was nearly New Year, there were random firecrackers in the street. When New Year came, it's the worst time of the year for lost pets since it will absolutely scare them some more. (Here, anyone can use firecrackers and fireworks for the New Year. It's a tradition passed down by some conquerors, the loud sounds and explosions are for warding off bad luck. I don't know if there are other meanings attached to it.) But at least that day, the firecrackers weren't that many as compared to the past, because of ongoing laws being passed about it...and my prayer for it to continue drizzling with some rain somehow came true. I tried my best to stay positive that New Year with my toy horn as the "loud sound maker" instead of firecrackers...but I was still sad because I'm so worried about Kyon.

He's not like other male tomcats. He's so sweet. He's like a dog. Follows me everywhere. Never scratches me. Learned on his own how to open a screen door that closes on its own. Learned on his own how to open a heavy glass sliding window. Can be commanded when it's feeding time. Knows what I'm saying when I talk to him or tell him not to do some things.

I just don't know if I should give up already. I want to finish writing our story but I'm so tired. I need to conserve energy for my search in a while.

Kyon is also the symbol of having the reason to live again...my lost raison d'etre.

I was going to apply for a distant job and I'll finally be able to afford to live with all of my no breed pets, maybe happily ever after this time. After all the tragedies of the past, all the lives I've lost and was taken from me, I was finally able to gradually have the strength to look forward to the future, little by little...with Kyon and the other pets with me.

But I can't function for a while now. All I've been doing is search, ask people, chores, rest, search again. Research online for methods of searching but really searching really is the best than sitting around doing nothing.

It came to my mind too that maybe, this is also a sign. That my new raison d'etre was taken away from me again. But I can't give up. Not yet. I can't.

I know that people are starting to laugh at me. Starting to look at me like I'm some crazy lady. It does help that I'm not yet an old lady and that I look proper. Only some people have actively discouraged me in my face. But with a reward, since they side-mouthed it, I wonder if they will be of any help.

I'm thankful though that there are those willing to help. I really wish that I can find Kyon. I'm worried because this is the city...and this is also the financial district. The border of two main cities. Manila and Makati. So it's busy. I've been searching the "quieter" neighborhoods but most of these are not so safe at all, just like in every city. But so far, I'm lucky and maybe because I'm street smart. Also going with my gut if I should enter certain areas and sometimes bringing along my rescued dogs.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Not again. I don't want to lose the lives I've "saved" again.


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LONG VERSION (Unfinished typing yet because I need to search for Kyon now.)

I've only taken care of dogs all my life, because cats aren't allowed due to the asthma of some family members before. Every time I pick up a stray cat, it was returned by others where I got them from. When we had years of mice infestation, some neighbor's cat took care of it, so I "borrowed" the cat every now and then. Eventually, I was able to keep the cat for months, then a year. I was able to raise a cat and despite objections, I successfully was able to keep a cat. But that cat went back to the neighbors when it got pregnant and left its litter with me afterwards. I took care of those kittens.

Now Kyon comes into the picture like this. While I was taking care of the first cat, there was a small cat outside that one of the cat loving neighbor teen was playing with. That cat really got my heart and I wasn't even doing anything and it approached me. But knowing that I can't really keep cats and that there's a time limit to it, my heart was hurting again...until after maybe a week, I really can't take it and decided to adopt the kitten from the street.

It was a little disoriented at first at the change of location, but after a short while, eventually followed me. Everywhere.

"July 20,2014 2:46pm
Woke up because of loud noises. I don't know if it came from the roof or the construction next door. It's metal noises.

Anyway, took a short break, cleaned the cat litter. I don't know if the new kitten pooped there. It wasn't piled up with the litter so I think she did. The little kitten kept on approaching me in the bathroom and wanted to be near me but I was handling water. Nyan kept on bothering the kitten. I thought Nyan was going to pet the kitten when the kitten placed her head near Nyan but Nyan scratched. She's playing by herself. So spoiled. I noticed something in the kitten's eyes. It was dead looking. Like it has no life at all. I want to take pictures and videos of it, to see if having an owner really can change a street cat. I want to see if I can make her happy. I want to document it. Maybe I will share it someday and raise awareness. By the way, the end of her tail was hanging. It's broken. I wonder if some humans outside broke it. I remember when I first saw her that she didn't have anything broken yet. She's so sweet towards humans that she might die when one of these humans tortures her.

I really wish that I can keep these cats. If not, then my goal is to make them close friends so that when the time comes I need to return them outside because cats are forbidden here, then they can be together. Their only enemies are humans. There's plenty of food and other cats outside and there are some good neighbors."

"July 23,2014 1:50am
Looked at my past pictures. Ah, this is frustrating.
Anyway, heard a loud noise upstairs. I don't know if it's Nyan cat.
The kitten is behind the sofa now. It's playing with a cockroach. I really think that it's destiny. This kitten loves me from the moment I first saw her. She kept on approaching me. I wish that I can keep them for as long as I can. When can I really enjoy my life with my pets or with anyone without the looming threat that they will have to go because they're not allowed here by the others? I guess, when I have my own house and home."

"July 24,2014 5:27am
Training the kitten. Nyan keeps on playing with her. The kitten's eyes look a bit livelier now."

"August 31,2014 10:34pm
Nyan is so funny.

I think I've thought of a name for the teenage cat now. Kyon?"

December 27,2015
2:25pm
Reading most of the entries with the word "kitten" in them, I really was somehow able to document how they changed and how I was able to train them. It really breaks my heart not knowing where Kyon is. Everyone outside will tell me to let it go, as some already did last night. I'm sure some of them were thinking that I'm crazy again. But it hurts so much.

Where are you Kyon?

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THE SEARCH
I started searching with the dogs that I rescued years ago, since they were Kyon's friends. It was at night. I walked around our side of our neighborhood for more than 4 hours. Some kids joined me. I was even able to walk to areas that I've never been before, just searching. I ended the search at around 2am.

The first naysayer told me that I'm staying up late for just a cat. I told him that he will never understand.

The next nights, I started searching by myself while showing pictures in my point and shoot camera to some people who seemed to want to help me, others are just curious about what I was doing or who I was searching for.

Night after night, I kept searching until I finally gathered the courage to ask the baranggay (community office) if I can view their CCTV cameras. It was only on Dec.31 when I finally saw the CCTV scene when Kyon went out into the main street, where there are a lot of vehicles passing by. I don't know if I should consider it lucky that there are finally some CCTV cameras in our area since the main street didn't have one yet, I wasn't able to see what happened. I do know that most of the cats go somewhere there because they keep on going to the garbage. Even if I feed Kyon, he still sometimes goes out to check the garbage or just hang out with the other street neighborhood cats.

The first viewing of the CCTV footage was pleasant because people seemed supportive, they even gave me a sandwich and juice from 7Eleven. I also took a long time. From around 5pm-11pm. They also allowed me to copy the footage, which took a long time because I was only using a USB connection. It was the only way.

*Will continue writing what happened with my search thus far later. I need to prepare and go to the other neighborhood's community hall and ask permission to view last year's CCTV footage which will be overwritten by tomorrow and there's no office by 5pm and on weekends so I will lose those footage forever. I plan to post this when I finish writing everything but time is ticking. I need to know if it's plausible to afford creating posters and the reward so I'll post this unfinished for now. I'm sorry.*

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