Hand up not hand out
Organized by: Donnie Evans
I have recently tried my hand at begging. I have been able to work for almost three years. I have barely been surviving by doing freelance computer/cell phone/tablet repairs on Craigslist. My body is broken from five separate accidents involving automobiles. The first one I wasn't even driving. I was a pedestrian, a drunk stripper ran me over with her SUV while I was walking in my parking lot. That was one of the bad ones. It hurt so bad. I don't even remember the truck or the stripper. The only thing I remember is walking and then my girlfriend picking me up while I spat out dirt. I was on the couch for weeks. In pain so bad that I could barely feed myself. I had to have my good cut for me so or would be easier to chew. I was in therapy for four and half months. In six months an old lady ran a red light And t-boned my car. That one hurt my passenger more then it hurt me. Next I was involved in an incident with a rental car and a pole, minor incident. Oops. The next time was about six WEEKS away when the driver of a work truck hauling a utility trailer fell asleep at the wheel. I was coming out of Walgreens and was reaching for the handle of car door when I heard crashing to my left. I turned to look and there was this truck traveling about 45 mph(72 kph) headed straight for me. I had only enough time to jump I to the car before he hit me. A very close call. I really really thought I was going to die that day. He never even applied brakes before he hit me. The emergency crew told the doctor that the truck "penetrated at least 10 inches in the cab of my car". This accident hurt me the most. I had internal bleeding and they had to do surgery. When they tried to wake me from the anesthesia I would have what is know as anesthesia terrors, nightmares, so bad they were worried that I was going to hurt myself. They couldn't wake me for 2 days. I was in the Intensive Care Unit for 3 days and in the hospital for a week. I never really healed from that one. I have "deep tissue bruising" causing muscle cramps and spasms all the time. I have restless legs and often thrash about the bed so bad from it that my woman can't sleep me. I can't sit still for long periods of time so I have to stand up or walk around. And I can't stand up at length because there is a pinched nerve and my legs go numb. I have trouble sleeping because of all this and most often pass out from exhaustion. It affects everything I do. After about two years of high levels of anxiety when traveling in vehicles I was in another accident. A distracted mother drove through a red light and turned her car directly into our path. It was a head on collision with both vehicles traveling about 45 mph. I don't even want to go into the things I've been through with therapy after that. Now things are getting hard. I haven't had a repair job in many weeks and I have not paid rent in monthes. It is by the grace of God that my roommates love me that I'm not homeless. I have two pot pies, about a quarter gallon of milk and a half box of cereal. I would be on the corner with a sign but when I tried that the police came and told me if they saw me again I would be arrested. Jail is starting to sound like a good option right now. I'm telling you that if anyone needs a little compassion it's me. I just don't know how in going to be eating in the next couple days and I know that I can't stay here forever without paying rent. Homelessness is an almost certainty it seems. I feel so broken and lost I am literally frozen with fear and I don't know what's going to happen. I'd never been homeless. Ive always had decent jobs and good homes to live in. I never had to worry about food and shelter and now I cry because it's the only thing I can think of to do. So now you know my recent life. Can I ask you for help?