Help me dance ballet again
Organized by: Ania Magdalena
My name is Ania, I'm a high school student of a ballet school, and ballet is all my life. The feeling of being on a stage and performing for people after long months of preparation is the most wonderful feeling on earth. It's prizeless. I have fallen in love with classical ballet at age of 10 and I love it more and more day by day. It's my dream, it's my sunshine. There are downsides of the life I have chosen, such like all that stress that comes with it. Being constantly in the harsh ballet society, and with the pressure to be extremely slim, 'petite' and weightless caused me an eating disorder, anorexia. In connection with long, long hours of physical training and dancing each day, my health became horrible. It ruined many aspects of my health, but there is one of the aspects i can not hide from people and from the audience - I lost my hair. Body is an instrument of a dancer. Thats why it is simply unacceptable to look in a way i look now because of the hair loss. When my school mates started making fun of me because of that, i started to seek for something that would hide the condition of my hair. Sadly, all the 'treatments' hairdressers did on my hair in order to make them look thicker and healthier, made it only worse. My natural hair have been pulledd off with their bulbs. Today I have bald spots on all over my head, and all that I can do with it now is to shave it down completely. At some point when I could not stand the humiliation anymore, I started skipping classes. I haven't been in ballet school for half a year now. I know that if I won't be back in school in september, I will be removed from the students list . The gap in training is getting too big, my class mates have been practicing and dancing while I've been sitting alone in my room. I missed all school performances this year. I lost the reason to live, because dancing was all my life. I want and I need to get back to my ballet school, but for that I need a specialistic wig that can be attached to such damaged hair and skin like mine. A wig made from natural hair that will look just as normal as any girls hair, made from special breathable material that will not interfere with the treatment, and it has to be made so well that will stay in place during physical training and dancing. Such wigs, in my country (i live in eastern europe) cost too much for my Mom to afford now, and each month without it drifts me away from my dream of finishing the ballet school and becoming a proffesional ballet dancer. I have no one else to ask. I belive this is my last, final hope to get help and get my life back. I'm raising money for a specialistic wig that will allow me to go back to my ballet school and start dancing again without shame and sadness. A new hair that will help me become the confident and smiling girl I used to be before, so I can perform and dance again. All I dream about is to get back my reason for existence, my sunshine, my dream, my beloved Ballet.