BENEFITING: AMERICAN WIDOW PROJECT
EVENT DATE: Oct 06, 2013
You’re Invited to my Party with a Purpose!
What is a party with a purpose you ask? Good question. It’s where you give up your presents and help a charity instead.
For my birthday, I have chosen The American Widow Project to give back to.
I would go on and on about why this organization is SO important to me. With every part of me, I believe in the heart & mission of American Widow Project. I believe that they can turn tragedy into hope and rebuild lives.
My widow story
I became a widow at the age of 34 with a three year old son to take care of on my own. When my dear husband, Eddie, died so did all my dreams & plans for the future. Everything that I knew that was good in the world was taken from me. I lost half my heart. Our son lost his Daddy. I didn’t know who I was anymore.
Death steals life & hope.
I remember the first couple months being totally numb and in shock. I was going with the everyday motions of life & doing what everyone expected me to do. About 3 months after Eddie died, that’s when it hit me. And it hit me hard. That’s when I realized he was truly gone & never going to walk through our front door again.
I remember taking my son, Dallas, to preschool every morning and I would come right home, sit on the couch with Eddie’s urn on my lap and just cry. I would cry for hours. I didn’t want to talk to family & friends about how I was feeling because honestly, I didn’t want to burden them and I couldn’t clearly express my grief.
There were times when I was very angry. Angry at myself for letting my husband get into the car that winter morning. Angry at God for taking my husband from me. Angry at the happy families I would see when I was in public. Then, there were the sad moments. Oh, there were lots & lots of those. There were also moments of happiness when my son would remind me of his Daddy.
I just didn’t know how to express my feelings to the people that cared about me the most. I also knew they wouldn’t fully understand or get it.
I then found a wonderful online community of other widows.
We were from all over the world, different ages, different backgrounds & stories, but the one thing we had in common was that we were a part of a club we never wanted to be a part of, and it was called ‘The Widow Club’. I instantly connected with the other widows I met & their stories of loss. I finally felt like I wasn’t alone.
I could be myself with them. They understood me, my feelings & I didn’t need to put on that fake smile and pretend I was okay. They simply got it & accepted me the way I was (crazy grief & all). I don’t know what I would have done without my widow community & their support.
Friends, this is why I am so passionate for the work American Widow Project is doing, and I pray that you have a heart for them as well.
My birthday wish
On my 38th birthday, I have one wish. To raise lots of moolah for AWP. I can not do it alone. I need you. The widows need you.
I am asking if you can donate to American Widow Project and help them continue their mission. Together, we can make a difference in the lives of military widows.