My siblings and I grew jumping from place to place, hiding out from our abusive father. We bounced around from crappy rental to shelters to different shelters and back again. Our mother wasn't extremely depressed and she had every right to be. Eventually children's aid stepped in and put us in the to the care of our maternal grandparents. My siblings father is somewhere in prison, my father has never been a fixture in my life. My grandparents were our only options while my mother tried to sort herself out. It's been three years and everyone is miserable - myself included. I'm supposed to be applying for univerisities next year and all I can think about is the ever present dread within my stomache. The dread of having to leave my siblings behind when I go off to school (and that's only if I can make it to school or afford it, hopefully Osap helps). For I know I have to live away from my current situation in order to be not only in a better academic state but in a better state of mind. I honestly do not know what my siblings would do without me, and I have no idea what I would do without them. I also have a younger uncle who has been diagnosed with bi polar disorder, he has been depressed on and off for the past decade. He resides with my grandparents as well. The caregiving of 4 dependents is taking a toll on my aging grandparents. My grandparents are wonderful people; they just need a break. The language barrier, generation gap and cultural views/ beliefs cause many difficulties. Ideally my mother ever so willingly would be granted legal custody of my siblings and they could together and all be happier and healthier for it. My uncle would also move in with them as this would help both parties immensely. If for whatever reason mother is not granted custody; I am turning 18 in January and will be able to adopt my brother and sister myself. All I've wanted to so since I was a child was to be a doctor as cheesy as that sounds. I'm applying for the cognitive science program at the University of Toronto (St. George Campus) next year and if all goes accordingly that's where I'll go. It would be a dream come true to be able to attend the school of my choice and the program I am head over heels in love with. It would be even better if I could do it while knowing my siblings and my grandparents are happy. The only missing factor to the success of my plan is money. Money, money, money must be funny in a rich man's world. No adoption will go through without the proper funds, no home will be rented, no tuition will be paid for without a whole lot of lettuce (money). Please, please donate! If everything works out you will get a copy of one of my future novels. Also you may be reading this and think that I'm positively insane and that I need to aim higher, no thank you. I prefer to aim higher as that is the only way to get higher. Like my momma said "you can never open your parachute if you don't jump".