My name is Afiqah from Malaysia . I'm 21 and I am a student . Here is my story , For the past year , at the age of 19 i start doing this preorder business online . I'm my country , 19 is the age where you are suppose to be studying and not working . But as a girl that wanna help my family , I involve myself doing business . The business was okey for 5 month and then , Starting early 2016 , my supplier ran away leaving me debt 1.2million that i have to pay back to my customers and agent . People starts to push me to refund , saying wanna harm and even rape me . They even ask me to be a prostitude and pay them . I was so depressed . Things get worst when my supplier trying to suck up all my saving by sue-ing me 1.5million . My case is now in high court as a defendent. I have to pay my lawyer 50 grand which is very very hard for me to find . I try to ask help from my parents but they said i need to face my own problem . My lost my friends , family's trust and my love life . I'm standing alone . I tried to reopen my instagram shop account . Incase i can start selling again and get money from that to pay my lawyer . But my instagram was hacked and i cant get it back . I reopen new instashop but not working . I wanna skip my study but my parents didnt allow me . I am so depressed . Last week, i decide to plan my death . I start googling how to kill my self and what to prepare before i go. I tried to reach my friends but they seems dont care . Yesterday , I download an apps Talklife . I was trying to be sure am i making the right choice by ending my pain . People seems nice and they suggest me this page . So here i am trying to stand up again by asking help . I cannot do it alone .