ALL WAYS UP FOUNDATION wrote -
Growing up I faced many obstacles to a college education. My mother and I never had a strong relationship, when I was six; she was diagnosed with a bipolar disorder. After the diagnosis, her temper and mood were increasingly erratic and she began to neglect me. As a child I constantly called out for her attention, to no avail. Today, I know her mental illness is not her fault, but as a small child, I despised her and I despised myself for being unworthy of her love. Self-doubt crept in; I lost the motivation to succeed. My biological father was never there for me either. My mother married my stepfather when I was an infant; he became my father. He was everything I had for a father figure and all I needed. A year after I was born my stepfather and mother got divorced; even though they were separated he continued his role as a father to me. My freshman year of high school my father remarried. It was hard for me to transition into sharing my father, growing up it was just him and me. It was a dramatic change for me not being able to see him all the time. My father started to spend less time with me, and more time with his new family. This adjustment in my life made it even more unbearable for me to deal with my mothers disorder. A couple of years ago, I realized that I was not going to let her dictate my life anymore. There was no big moment that made me come to this conclusion, I just new that she was not going to control my life or what I choose to do with it. No matter how much I want to give up, I would not. I decided to start trying again and came to a conclusion that I can do anything I set my mind to. My high school counselor has made a profound impact on who I am today. She challenged me to reach my full potential, and never let me fall short of preforming my best. My grandparents and father have also impacted my life a great deal. Without their support, I know for a fact I would not be the person I am today. I have accomplished and achieved a great deal, but none of it could have been possible if it were not for me believing in myself. Although I have had faced several roadblocks and obstacles, I have tried to stay motivated and continued to strive. Because of the obstacles I have overcome with the support of a loving community, I want to provide the same community for other children. I aspire to become an elementary school teacher. I want to ignite a spark in children I encounter and motivate them to the fullest of my ability. My passion for teaching is also shaped by the large inequalities I see in our school systems. I want to transfer my knowledge to others. I will learn the satisfaction of knowing that I made a difference in a child’s life; this is the greatest reward I could ever ask for. I desire to enable each of my students to fully maximize their talents, imagination, skills, and characters no matter their personal background. I know I am being called to become a teacher and I am determined to achieve that goal by staying motivated and not letting anything deter me. Receiving the Perlman Foundation Scholarship, would help me adhere to my aspirations.