BENEFITING: 3 LITTLE BIRDS 4 LIFE
My struggle with cancer is unfortunately not the only thing happening to me right now. Just a month before I was diagnosed with breast cancer, my divorce was to be finalized. My husband, like many others, decided he thought the grass was greener on the other side and had an affair and then asked for a divorce. We were married for 15 years at the time. I was a stay at home mom raising our daughter. We chose together to just have one income. My husband is Air Force. We lived with in our military pay all those years. After he asked for the divorce, I knew I needed to find a job. I did receive my associates degree in accounting years ago, but I never worked. I tried to find a job doing accounting ,but companies want you to have experience. It's hard to get experience when they won't hire you. I can thank The Lord that our daughter was almost 18 at the time. I didn't have to provide for young ones. My husband and I did co-habitat together for a year while I looked for a job and a place to live. During that year of looking for work, I met someone very special. Five months later I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I did move into his families house. Shawn and his family has been my close supporters through this journey. My closest family members live an hour away. Since the diagnoses I have not been able to work due to surgery and many, many, complications with my surgery. I would say the biggest struggle I have with all of this is the change in life style. I went from having financial security, owned 2 homes, bought land, and was getting ready to retire from the Air Force. Goals and dreams my husband and I set together and worked hard on achieving them. I went from that to living in an apartment where drug dealers live and such, I have to struggle with money because I can't work at this time, I had to change all my dreams and goals. I'm not having a pity party. I know this happens to a lot of people. I'm not the only one. I'm just telling MY story. I had the rug pulled out from underneath me. Not only do I have cancer to deal with, I had my world turned upside down all at the same time. Everyday has been a challenge to find the exceptance in all of this. I have so much anger, bitterness, that I just can't seem to let go of. I never thought I would ever have to deal with a broken family and cancer at 37 years old.