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Keep Sienna with her mama

Organized by: Jenna Booth

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March 12, 2016

Yesterday was my daughters first birthday and also the jury trial for her fathers criminal charges. He was found guilty by the jury on two out See More

THE STORY:

Recently I have experienced immeasurable heart ache and although it embarrasses me, I have unfortunately reached the point of needing help. Most people don't know my recent circumstances, not even my own father, brothers, or close friends. This situation has consumed my thoughts for far too long, so I have pretty much blocked people off from seeing how much it's hurt me. While certain aspects of this situation have nothing to do with my daughter or I, and no reflection on my parenting- it is still humiliating to be categorized in to certain stereotypes, or receive pity from people feeling sorry for us. The last thing I want is for people to feel sorry for my daughter. She is happy, healthy, safe, and extremely loved! With that being said, I need to keep her that way! In May of 2015, two months after my daughter was born, her biological father served me papers for half physical and half legal custody. I was heart broken. I knew that Siennas best interest was with me, and not her father, who she hadn't seen in a month because of his opiate addiction. We were placed under a temporary joint restraining order until we went to trial, which stated that neither parent could with hold our child from one another, and neither of us could leave the state for longer than 24 hours. I was suddenly forced, irregardless of any circumstances, to let her dad back in to her life. I was also forced to scramble to find the money to hire legal counsel. Her father, on the other hand, is represented by his mothers employer, who she has worked for for more than ten years. All of the services his attorney provide for him are either free of cost, or deeply discounted. The purpose of this page is not to bash her biological father, but to help keep her safe, so I will only state the facts. Siennas "dad" is currently incarcerated. He is facing 8 misdemeanor charges and one felony. These charges include: domestic violence with traumatic injury, harassment, battery, inattentive driving, and the worst, injury to a child- that child, being Sienna. Since then the state of Idaho has placed a no contact order on him, preventing him from being able to be around her. But since his attorney is a lifelong family friend and is representing him for free, he can afford to keep fighting and fighting and fighting. I simply can't. Due to our joint temporary restraining order stating I had to let her father see her, I agreed to let him have her on thanksgiving 2015 so that I could have her for her first Christmas. Unfortunately thanksgiving morning, around 9 am, her dad was caught injecting heroin in to his arm, in front of her. When he was arrested, we discovered that he had not only been a long time heroin user, but also, a dealer. It is logical to assume that Sienna has not only seen heroin several times in her short life, she has also been around needles, other addicts, in the presence of drug deals, and handled by someone under the influence of drugs numerous times. A little about me: Sienna is the light of my life. She is what I live for, what I breathe for, and the face I see in my head during every decision I make. I have had her every single day since she's been alive. I worked full time until ten days before I gave birth, and went back to work when she was just 21 days old. Even though I would rather be able to stay home with her, I have never received one dollar of child support, and have supported her physically, financially, and emotionally 100% on my own since day one. I work over 40 hours a week, and when I'm not at work I am with her 100% of the time. I am not on food stamps, nor do I receive any welfare. I pay my own bills, I have always maintained a job, I work really hard, and I have graduated from school. I've never been arrested, and have no criminal background whatsoever. I have no social life, I don't go out, and she is NEVER around drugs, alcohol, or unsafe situations when in my care. I am a big believer in second chances- and third and fourth and fifth. I've given out handfuls, way more than I should. I realize that people can change. The person I was before I had Sienna is a night and day difference to who I am now. I'm not naive to the fact that Sienna NEEDS a daddy in her life. She needs a father figure. There are things a daddy can give her that I just can't- no matter how "wonderful" of a mother I am. I would never dream of taking her from a loving, responsible, providing father. However, I am also not naive to the fact that heroin addicts usually have three endings to their life: overdose, jail, or getting clean. I'm not willing to chance her being involved in the first two. The psychological damage that she could face from growing up in an atmosphere like her father has so far created, is huge. Sienna is the happiest baby I've ever seen. I am constantly being complimented for how easy going, cheerful, and independent she is. She does not go without. I would provide anything she needs and wants before I would spend it on myself. I have always figured out a way to provide all of her clothing, food, furniture, diapers, wipes, medication, $500/month formula, etc on my own. I cannot afford to keep paying for a lawyer however, and I go to pre trial in just three short weeks. I'm begging for any kind of help so that I can protect my daughter and give her the best possible future. Children learn from what they see. The cycle of addiction and violence is real.. I want to take her as far away from that as possible. My fight or flight response has been very off lately. I was so prepared to fight like hell in the beginning. But lately I feel so much stress from the cost of all of this that its taking my focus away from being fully prepared. Thank you for reading and thank you for your help and encouragement!

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58% Raised of $4,000 Goal

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Donor Comments

Melisa Billman

Melisa Billman

DONATION: $50

Keep the precious babe safe 2 years ago

Anonymous

ANONYMOUS

DONATION: $25

3 years ago

Scout

Scout

DONATION: $200

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Mark Morton

Mark Morton

DONATION: $40

3 years ago

McLovin

McLovin

DONATION: $360

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J. Logan

J. Logan

DONATION: $100

God bless and good luck. 3 years ago

Melisa Mo Billman

Melisa Mo Billman

DONATION: $50

All the best!! 3 years ago

David W

David W

DONATION: $200

3 years ago

Adam

Adam

DONATION: $55

Wish I could help out more! 3 years ago

Anonymous

ANONYMOUS

DONATION: $40

You're doing a great job and I can't wait to see more adorable pictures of your beautiful baby. Stay strong! 3 years ago

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