April 12, 2016
Another fabulous class tonight with Allie!!! See more
For the last decade or so, a lot of different people in my life have recommended yoga to me - I guess my type A stressed out personality was more noticeable to others than I thought. After going through 2 of the most challenging years of my life after the birth of my second child, I found myself broken. I had given so much, everything really, to helping my child survive, while trying to also provide my first child with enough nurture and love, I had nothing left for myself. I had completely and totally forgotten that I even existed; I didn't even know I was supposed to love myself or acknowledge myself - I'm a mother after all! So as life settled after the challenges, and my children were faced with normal struggles, not life-threatening ones, and my work as an oncology nurse continued on, that's when the anxieties set in. First it was subtle, but soon it affected every aspect of my life. I couldn't make it the 15 minute drive to work without having an anxiety attack. I couldn't go on the carousel at the zoo without an attack, or the train ride. I couldn't go to dinner with friends.......I closed myself in, and it made it even worse. Until one day, my very dear friend insisted that I go to yoga class with her (she had only be asking for a couple of years lol!). I almost cancelled on her half a dozen times, but somehow I made it there and onto that mat. Over the next hour, breathing heavy and sweating to death, everything in my head started to calm. It was only me. It was only my breathe - in and out. I left class that day feeling lighter, my shoulders somewhat relaxed. That was only about 2 months ago and now here I am , challenging myself for 20 classes in 30 days. My children are excited to cheer me on through this journey. I am excited to see where it takes me, and I am open to the possibility and the hope of finally getting rid of the anxiety I still face - because every class I go to, I manage to loose a little bit more of it. So this a very personal journey for me, but I would like to pay it forward, and raise money towards Kula for Karma because they offer yoga classes for my cancer patients at the Cancer Center where I work as a nurse. Thank you for your support, be it a financial donation, an encouraging word to help me get to class, or a hug to help me learn how to love myself.