loras miracle from angels
Organized by: Lora Cruse
my name is lora cruse and i am a single parent of 3 children. i have been stricken with a birth defect of the brain and spine called arnold chiari malformation. this is an incurable progressive deteriorating birth defect. i am only 36 years old and am so curious as to why i was given these 3 beautiful children and then my capability to care for them on my own ripped away in a split second. i was in an abusive 17 year marriage and when i finally left him i was doing great. with only 2 semesters left to become an rn i started having unexplained seizures thus finding my birth defect. following my surgery i have since developed several other serious illnesses. and to top things off my ex husband was sent to prison and i lost my $500 weekly child support. i have tried desperately to work but i am simply unable to. my life expectancy is shorter than the average persons'. i only pray that God will let me hang around long enough to hold my grandchildren. i never feel sorry for myself, in fact i am the most outgoing positive funny woman that many people enjoy the pleasure of talking with. one of my mottos in life is "if i can make others laugh be it with me or at me, atleast they are forgetting about their own problems for 5 or so minutes" my only goal in life was to be the best mother i could possibly be and my strength wasn't there to fight off my illnesses. i know my children love me but they also have subconscious resentment to the fact that i became ill. i am so lost as to what to do. I'm drowning and do not know how to fix it. if you cannot help i do understand but i do ask one favor: the very next time you bow your head or drop to your knees to pray, please say a kind prayer for myself and my children. God Bless You!