Hello everybody, my name is Mesha and i'm currently depressed. Many things happened in my life for the past 10 years and i'm depressed. i really want to go to a nice place to calm my mind at least for a while. I plan to go to a country where the person that i really care about is in, but i cannot afford on my own. I cannot stand staying in this house anymore and i sometimes plan to commit suicide but i'm too scared to do that. Maybe i'm a coward, or maybe i still want to live. I've come to the point that all i need is a time for myself, in a quiet place.