Need a Fresh Start
Organized by: Juliette Lewis
My name is Juliette, and I need help. I was married about 9 months ago to the person I though I would spend the rest of my life with. I was wrong. Day 1 our marriage was already starting to crumble. During vows I realized that I didn't love him and that I was making a mistake. I should have realized this while we were dating, as he was rather terrible to me and didn't respect me at all. I went through with the wedding to prevent embarrassment to everyone, but that night and every night on our honeymoon I had a panic attack. This had never happened to me before. I began to develop depression and since then I have felt dead inside. He says he loves me and sees no problem, so I can't bear to tell him how I feel. I've been trying recently, but he either won't listen or he gets very angry. I can't handle the mind games anymore and I've recently realized that he may be a sociopath (a whole other danger). Couple's counseling hasn't worked out. I've known since the wedding day that I would need to leave, and now I've finally made up my mind to do it. I have a part time job (I'm still in college) and I freelance occasionally, but I don't have enough in my personal account to leave. I've always supported myself, paid my own tuition and rent for the years before I was married, so I feel ashamed asking for help now. I have no family in state and no where to go, so I just need help to leave and to get through the annulment process (my marriage has grounds for annulment). I can stick it out a little longer until I can afford somewhere else to go, but I am living in misery and I need to get out asap. It would mean the world to me if you could help me get out of this situation. Thank you so much.