My father is the single most amazing person that ever existed and he was robbed of his time on earth. I attribute every positive aspect of my being and any great ripple through my life to his nurturing and involvement. He was a selfless and strong person. Even during the time he was diagnosed with Cancer.
Life after that was the extremely slow, surreal, bad trip that we all thought we’d be shaking off by morning. It was the most confusing time I can remember. To this day, I still catch myself trying to convince myself that we’re going to wake up from this endless sleep. One day, I won’t have to chase after his shadow through an unfamiliar corridor. But reality is that harsh lesson on life and death. It makes you appreciate the smallest beautiful moments after the deepest cuts and teaches you how to remove the dagger when you acknowledge its existence.
I couldn’t ever imagine all our youthful family memories from listening to music while floating out back by the pool, harvesting our bountiful garden fruits after painstakingly caring for them all summer, family vacations to building model rockets crammed into one photo album. Plastering every inch of our kitchen refrigerator with physical pictures, afraid we’d forget the memory somehow. Not at all did I think this was the reality our lives would become.
My dad never showed any sign of letting his diagnosis get to him. He never slowed or settled for bland quality of life. He was humble, but classy. My dad is the strongest and most selfless person I’ll ever know. Even during that last week in the hospital. Still making conversation, still showing interest in every facet of our lives, trying to displace us from that room.
I was hollowed the year he died. Blindly roaming through life. I couldn’t understand why battling Cancer was in his life path. He didn’t deserve to endure any of that. No one does.
Even knowing the outcome of his battle, when the chance to run for the cause presented itself, I decided to run because I felt that he would want me to run. He’d want me to help better the lives of children that weren’t afforded the opportunity to live carefree during their most precious years. In hopes that we can one day break the cycle. He’d want me to challenge myself to be strong so I can give strength to those that need it.
Even four years after he has passed, he’s still positively pushing me through life. Another positive ripple, I attribute to you, Daddy.
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