You cant really tell but the picture right up there is pretty freakin' special. This is me on top of Mt.Washington on a gorgeous and really windy day, and its a picture I am really proud of. Not because I scaled the mountain - my Jetta gets all the credit for that and she's got the bumper sticker to prove it! But because I am proud to be the girl you see who is smiling out the outside, and also smiling BIG on the inside. Over a year ago I was in one of the saddest places I've ever been and I thought it was a place I was never going to leave. Not something very visible on the outside, but definitely very feelable on the inside. I didn't have the skills I needed to do right by myself and I was overwhelmled by feeling like I wasn't the friend, daughter, partner, or person I wanted to be. When things are painful for me I try to remember what my dad told me at mile 20- something of the Marine Corps Marathon; "I know it hurts, and I know it sucks but you have to FIGHT now. You have to FIGHT." So I got honest with myself and I said 'Colleen, you're either going to spend all this time fighting yourself or you can take that time and spend it fighting for yourself.' So I got an appointment at BWH Psychiatry because I didnt know where to start my fight. Lucky for me (and thousands of others) everyone at Brigham & Women's did! BWH's commitment to me not just through therapy (though Dr.G is my MVP) but also through my primary care, has completely changed my life. I can't even begin to compare the me I was to the me I am; The me you see up there! I am really proud and happy to be her. So while I run alot of races that are close to my heart, this one is a bit closer to my head too. While I'm burnin rubber (okay maybe not) I will be thinking about the tremendous hope I feel for me, and maybe for you and for the other people that I know BWH can help.