The Warrior Princess mud run is less than a month away!!! Please help!!!!
July 24, 2017
When I was 20 years old, I met a man through a mutual friend. We dated for quite a while and I thought he was the coolest thing next to peanut butter and jelly. When I was 23 I ended up pregnant with her first daughter. All he wanted me to do was stay home with our daughter and cook and clean, Which I thought was pretty neat because I love to cook and clean. But throughout that time, I was not allowed any money, if I needed anything I had to ask and I needed to justify it, I was not allowed to go out with my friends, and if I was persistent with it he would accuse me of cheating on him until I broke down and let him come with.
When I was 24 our second daughter was born. Things didn't get easier, I just learn to deal with them. However one night he came home from work, and I was holding our sick eight week old baby in my arms, dinner wasn't done, nor were the dishes this enraged him. I was trying to explain why nothing was done, but he was not hearing me, so I started yelling back. He then shoved me into a set of French doors while I was holding our daughter. I lost my balance as I was trying to shield her from the impact, and before I knew it his foot was on my face which resulted in three fractured teeth which had to be removed. I had nowhere to go, and no one to talk to because up until this point no one really knew what was going on. I kind of just thought it was normal at that point. That thinking didn't last very long two years later I secretly saved up enough money to go and get my own place where we both agreed to file for divorce.
We both now thankfully coparent very well, and have forgiven.
Now 10 years later, I have to say my road hasn't been very easy but that too I am very thankful for. I have gained a self awareness that nothing can waiver. I know what I am capable of, and I know what I want and deserve in life.