BENEFITING: MS Foundation For Women Inc
I am a caregiver for my Aunt who is suffering from a chronically disabling, long-term progressive MS, at the same time caring for my own 5 children , and 1 Grandchild. I am trying to juggle a low paying career with sleepless nights as a caregiver, I'm exhausted. It's especially hard with watching your loved one's body deterioriate. I often feel guilty for even wanting to spend a little time on myself. For wanting to go out for some fresh air. Or go to dinner and a movie, or go and enjoy one of my favorite sporting event's. Or to have a quiet time, go to church, get my hair cut . And then try taking care of my own health needs, is virtually impossible. But not being able to get the help I need caring for my Aunt, or help taking care of the house and the finances, simply just to give me a much needed break Come to think of it, wI can't think of the last time i even had a real break? Slept a long, sound night? Felt that things were under control? Felt that there was still hope, and that I would some day have a LIFE? When will I be able to work through and keep my own finances intact ,so I can spend important, nurturing time with my children, or for a needed week long getaway, for a little "R&R" Being a Single mom, kids, primary caregiver there are times when I just wish it would all end and my life would fnally go back to normal, whatever normal is. Sometimes I feel like by the time this is over, it will be too late for me to regain my financial freedom, get ready for MY retirement, and see what the 'empty nest' feeling is really about. I am so tired, and depressed I feel I have no one to turn too. I can't afford counseling. I lost all my health care when the company I worked for closed. I am working and doing what I can. I need a second job, but if I do that, it means no care for for my Aunt..I'm still struggling with her home, taxes, bills, insurance, doctor visits, medical decisions, and issues on top of issues, while trying to reinvent my life and find a way to support myself at age34. This is why I feel that employing a nanny to care for my loved ones is the best way provide the care they need. I'm Under-compensated. Most of it I do for free, and at a great sacrifice to my income and LIFE, on top of the emotional stresses of strained relationships. To get through the trying times ahead. Through the seemingly pained demands of my Aunt. And to be able to give her a comforting smile, when her body is laid to rest. What a shame it would be if I had caregiver burnout. What if I were too wiped out to be able to see, feel, enjoy these moments! Of closeness, sharing, bonding with my Aunt being able to spend valuable time with my 5 children and grandchild I never realized what I was missing. My family and I could never go anywhere because there was never anyone else to care for my bed-ridden Aunt. Please help me get a grip on Life, help out with the support I need from a home health care service, which will allow myself to make the necessary changes, so that I can think clearly, gain strength and confidence, and survive the caregiver challenges ahead.